it's been two months and i'm still turning it over in my mind. new year's eve, my mom and i got into an argument, and she called all my loves, interests, and hobbies "trivial" and said she hoped that i would realize that some day and be an evangelist and follow god or something. she fucking insulted me and she doesn't even know it. she just showed herself as just another one of the so-called "christians" who feel they have to belittle someone's interests and then say that the stuff they're into is much better. you know what? the only reason i'm not an atheist even now is because i feel that god overrides her stupid bias. i don't consider myself a "christian" in the popular sense of the word. i believe in god, and that's it. sure, i call myself catholic, but underneath it all i want to distance myself from most other christians. christianity would be great if it weren't for the christians.

trivial.

she insulted me and doesn't even know it.

trivial.

if i brought it up now we'd just have another argument, where she'd accuse me of "abusing" her because i told her something she doesn't want to hear.

fuck you, mom. i don't hate you for this, i just think a whole lot less of you.

i'm going to have a sandwich.